If all my 5 faithful bloggers will excuse me I like to write a letter to the most wonderful person in the world......my mommy.
Dear Mommy,
I went to your house yesterday evening after you and dad had left and I was doing just fine. I even cleaned the house up a little. I separated some yard sale items and got them taken care of. I started you a pile of stuff I think you may want to take with you when you make a trip back. Then I walked into the little room to get all the church paperwork together so I could get started on it. I fount your little note, read it, and absolutely felt like I'd been hit with a MAC truck. Since you all decided to go to Alabama I have been so busy with getting things ready, planning and organizing for your last special service here that I haven't had the luxury to sit down and just think about how this is really going to effect me and my life. Boy did I get to last night. I sat in that nearly empty house and all I could do was think. I tried not too, but I thought, I guess there won't be no more skipping over to Moms for Sunday dinner. No more late Sunday evening trip to DQ. No more spur of the moment Lexington trips to spend all our money on pretzel bites, Godiva, and Starbucks. I'm used to being able to see you whenever I want, now I have to wait till we can arrange a time that fits our schedules. I hate it! I hate it! I hate it! How can I make it for weeks at a time without a hug and kiss from mommy? Where do I go now when I feel like I'm falling apart and your not just 15 minuets away? You are not just my mommy, but you are my best Friend! How can I make it without my best friend? How can I make this change in my life without your constant tangible love, support and encouragement? At a time in my life that I feel I need you more than ever.....why this? Mommy, I miss you so much!!!!! It's like being on a diet. You know how when you can't have something that is all you can think about? That is what you crave? Well that's how I feel. I know you are so far away and all I can think about is if I could just hold your hand one more time. If I could just have you pray with me or more time with your arm around me. If I could just sit and ramble on about the ups and downs of life one more time. If I could just hug your neck one more time. Or kiss your cheek. I feel like a faltering weed rather than a budding flower. Mommy, I feel so lost without you. I admit I'm a much better follower than a leader, I'll do all I can with the help of the Lord to be all I can in him. Mommy, I love you! I wanna make you and dad proud!I wanna make God proud! I wanna be strong like you, I wanna be kind like you, I wanna love like you, I wanna PRAY like you! I want to have a Pastor's Wife heart like you! Thank you for being such a wonderful mommy! You are the very best in the world!!!!!! I love and miss you so much!!!!! And when we do get to see each other again I'm gonna squeeze you in a big bear hug and never let go! (till I have to) :)
Till I see you again!
Your loving daughter,
Lacey
